A new start!!

As i read your blog, tears started to fill my eyes. As much as i dont want to cry, as much as i dont want to break down, as much as i want to show that i'm strong, i cant help but to just fall. I fell so hard that i couldnt even feel myself anymore. I feel so lost after i lost you. The things you said, be it out of anger, or for real, indeed it hurt me deeply. I cannot just be here right now, smile and pretend that nothing is happening. As much as i want to hear your voice right now, your calls i choose to ignore. Not because i dont want you here, but because i feel that i'm never just good enough for you.

I do not know if what i'm doing is right. I dont know if i'm going to regret this decision down the road. I dont know many many things, be it now or if i'm ever going to. But one thing is for sure Nikki, i know that i do very much love you. I always have, always will, and always would.


Signing off:
Kenny Chng